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wWednesday, September 25, 2002 |
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ten days.
ten loooooooooong days.
i'd say i've been too busy to be updating this thing as much as i'd like, but i'd be lying. it wasn't until lately that i've been busy enough to be "too busy." and it wasn't school or a job that got to me. it was my girlfriend.
now don't start gettin on my case. i haven't got to say anything yet.
she hasn't been nagging or obnoxious or needy or anything like that. her grandfather had a heart attack last week and was scheduled for triple bypass surgery on monday. (just a sidenote, he actually needed quadruple bypass surgery, it was successful and has has since been moved out of the intensive care unit) needless to say, jaymi was a wreck all weekend. and here's when i got busy.
it was so painful watching her cry all day all weekend and not being able to do anything about it. where you care so much about someone, and you have to sit idly by and watch them hurt. fun? notsomuch. obviously her grandfather was the only thing on her mind, and anytime she talked to her mom or someone told her things would be okay, she started to cry. and upon hearing about her grandfather's condition, who isn't gonna try to comfort her by saying everything's gonna be alright?
the only thing i could think to do was stay by her side as much as possible. but then when i got stuck trying to find the words to say that would make everything wrong in the world disappear, i tried finding stuff for us to do that would maybe take her mind off it for a while. didnt' really work....so i took her to my parent's house.
thank you mom. thank you dad. i couldn't have asked for anything more. i've been lucky in that i haven't lost someone close to me, but you two seemed to have things under control. and when i find myself stumbling around lost looking for something, you two are always there with things under control....seemingly. i know things don't always happen because of you, i'm old enough to know that, but just the same...i'm glad i know i can always come home.
but to kinda wrap things up, jaymi's grandfather is feeling better. he was moved from intensive care the day after his surgery, and is already complaining about the hospital food. which is a sure sign that he's feeling just about normal. jaymi's flying back home tomorrow, and i'll be glad to see her. i kinda pushed her to fly home cuz i figured she'd want to be there if she wasn't, but just the same, i'm glad she's coming back. things are different without her around...and i don't like it.
and maybe we'll find a time when we're not too busy with school or jobs or family to just relax, cuz that's when we can just be...and being is human.
posted by
yeah...about that... at 2:48 AM
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thoughts and musings and quandries that plague my mind....
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| name: Steve |
| what's my sign: Aquarius |
| school: Georgia Tech |
| AIM: cage fiend |
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| today is February 22 |
| the time is 4:52 AM |
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| eating: nothing |
| drinking: water |
| today's plans: get through today, and the next, and the next... |
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